Friday, August 31, 2012

On the Road to Discovery


Chicago



1 RV

3 adults 4 kids

7 States

3,983 Miles

10 Days

We started off our journey eager and excited. We planned it out so that we could take our time driving to Chicago. Making sure to allow enough time to take in the sights, and stop often, in hopes that the little kids would adjust to being in car seats much more than normal.


Some minor issues popped up... But didn't stop us!



Here are assorted photos from our rest stops...

Everyone loves Little America 

 Cooper even had his first ice cream cone!



Overall the kids did well traveling...

even if Cooper was so OVER being in his carseat!

these two enjoyed the comforts of the RV

So did Keegan 




We stopped to check out the windmills... And got some Nebraska corn!






We found a rest stop with a neat park.








We stopped in Colorado to visit friends in Denver. It was my first time visiting the state that I dreamed would be my home when I was a kid... The dream continues! We had such an AMAZING time! The pictures will have to speak for me, or we will be here for hours!




 Thank you Angela for letting us crash your pad (and for the amazing photos you will see below!). Thanks to Misha for a delish home cooked meal. Every person we met was kind; I even have a softball team to play with when we move ;)


After our pit stop in Denver we were off again… our next stop was in Kearney Nebraska. We saw signs for the archway monument and decided that was a good place to check out and find somewhere to stop for the night and cook dinner. We got to the monument and it was closed. They close at 6, so at 6:15 the place was deserted! 



This turned out to be perfect. The monument is right next to a little lake with a bridge that takes you over to exhibits showing native Indian history, they even grow real Indian corn (which they harvest and send everything to the native Indian tribes that are now located elsewhere).



 do you have signal??


We left Rick and Keegan behind at the RV to go adventure across the bridge.
  



 We met a lovely lady who was there caring for the plants (whom I expected to scold us for being there when the place was closed, hahaha the city girl in me!). She talked to us for a half hour about the monument, sunflowers, corn, and beans. I appreciated her taking the time to talk to us, and tell us about what they do. Makes me miss living in the country, where people aren’t in a hurry and are happy to talk to you!
On the way back to the RV after the kids frolicked in the sprinklers…


nothing better after a long hot day!





  followed by a beautiful sunset...




 We got back jst in time for dinner! We had steak, grilled potatoes, and baked beans. YUM!
Rick was wondering what happened to us. As he waited for us to return he managed to get internet service and posted on his Facebook: “sitting here BBQ in Kearney Nebraska.” 

Shortly after that we discovered that one of his long lost cousins lives in Kearney Nebraska!! Just a few miles from where we were sitting and eating dinner! She was so excited that her family got in the car and drove to meet us. She convinced us (I didn’t take much convincing! We needed to wash dishes, and were running low on drinking water! Did I mention one of the water tanks was cracked, a pipe was leaking, and we couldn’t figure out how to get the water to work? 7 people and no running water= me desperate for water!), to come park the RV at their house. Unfortunately, they have cats and a slew of little kittens running around and I am super allergic so we decided to do dishes in the yard with a hose, gotta love it! Once we got the kids off to bed we sat outside under the stars. I listened to Rick and his cousin talk about their family and catch up while enjoying a cool breeze and watching fireflies flickering in the distance (I haven’t seen fireflies in about 20 years!).

The next morning after breakfast and goodbyes we were back on the road. This day is a bit of a blur, my allergies started acting up. I think it was a mixture of the kids playing with the kittens (Cooper LOOOVES cats, and it’s adorable!) and other environmental allergies. By the end of the day I was miserable! We stopped in Des Moines Iowa and, went to the store for some Benadryl, Zyrtec, anything I could get my hands on. After that we headed to a KOA (40 miles back from where we came LOL!) outside of Des Moines and I crashed. I woke up for a shower and dinner, watched the kids at the pool for a few, helped get everyone ready for bed, and crashed again.




Our morning consisted of quickly getting the kids fed, dressed, coffee, and getting back on the road. Our next stop would be the Hotel… glorious hot water, comfy beds, and enough space for everyone to spread out! The only thing in our way was TOLL ROADS! We saw the dreaded sign that we were entering a toll road and tolls were due ahead. We had less than a dollar in nickels and pennies. There was nowhere else to go, and nowhere to stop! Lucky for us they issued us an IOU. We hit the Oasis and I begrudgingly paid the 3.50 fee to get money from an ATM, thinking at least we can pay the remainder of the tolls… WRONG!! 2 more IOU’s from the unmanned tolls that only take EXACT change! HAHAHA.
We get to the hotel... YAY!!! We made it! Get checked in and head down to the area where everyone checks in for the convention and they have a huge room set up with vendors and activities for the kids. 





signatures saying thank you to the company for providing growth hormone to those in need.


They get handprint pictures made, faces painted, climb rock walls, play and have fun. I took Keegan to meet with the Dentist and he said Keegan’s teeth looked good and he didn’t have any concerns (WOOHOO big relief for me!)! Once things wound down we went to dinner, came back to our rooms exhausted and slept like babies!
Looking back it feels like the convention flew by.

Friday: We got up and ready, dropped the kids off at the daycare, attended the first half, picked the kids up for lunch (Mom watched the kids while Rick and I attended an added segment on insurance reimbursement), dropped the kids back off at daycare, finished the second half of the day, and raced back to pick up the kids even though the doctor wasn’t finished talking.

I did manage to ask Dr. Borchert a question (rather sort of a question) and all he could really tell me is that Optic Nerve Hyperplasia (He believes that Septo-Optic Dysplasia is a misnomer, and that all of our kids have ONH, just affected in varying degrees) is a spectrum disorder and unfortunately Keegan is on the severe end of the spectrum.


Ouch. I feel like the air has been  drained   from my lungs. The room gets heavier.

Breathe. Try to smile and nod. Don’t break down in front of all these strangers. Breathe.
 
Don’t cry. I’m sure everyone is thinking they are lucky their kid isn’t like mine. Maybe

holding your breath will be better. He’ll be done in a second and maybe you can run

without people noticing. I wish I hadn’t insisted on sitting at the front of the room.

Breathe.  Stop sniffling. Hold it together.


That went on for a few minutes until I could calm down. I don’t know why it hurt so much to hear it out loud. I had a feeling I wouldn’t like everything I heard when I started asking tough questions. I already knew Keegan’s case was more severe, it’s not like it was news. He didn’t have any amazing insight; although, I am interested in his theory that Keegan might have intermittent vision. Which makes more sense than saying he sees absolutely nothing. I did my best to keep it together as I listened to the rest of what Dr Borchert said. I started talking to God. I wondered why I was there, I thought I would meet other kids like Keegan and get support and encouragement from the parents. I thought the doctors would have new and valuable information about this disorder that I could share with our doctors and specialist. I thought I would get ideas and inspiration. Time was running out and none of those things had happened. He made all of this possible, and if it wasn’t for those things I expected then why?


That night we went to dinner, took the kids to the pool (which was freezing! Keegan didn’t like it), and got ready for bed.


Saturday: Got up and ready, dropped kids off, attended a discussion about MAGIC, and got out early so we could spend the afternoon at the zoo. We enjoyed the animals and gardens and walked until we couldn’t any longer. 

As I wandered around the zoo I was worried. Trying to figure out how I would explain this experience to others. It wasn't anything like I thought. It wasn’t bad. I just thought I would learn something new. I firmly believe there is purpose in EVERYTHING. I spent a large portion of the drive home pondering the same thing… We drove our RV around downtown Chicago, go ahead and laugh! We realized there wasn’t going to be anywhere to park it. Headed back toward the hotel and found a place to stop and have a classic deep dish pizza.

 It was our first and we all loved it! With full bellies we went back to the hotel just in time for fireworks!!!


 After that we were beyond tired... Everyone got ready for bed and crashed! 

Those 2 days were so long and still so short!


We got up and on the road as quickly as possible Sunday and spent 2 ½ days hauling butt to get home!

 I kept thinking, there’s got to be other people out there like me with kids like Keegan on the more “severe” end of the spectrum, as Dr. Borchert put it.

Where are they???

Maybe they feel like me...

 Alone.    Isolated.    Unheard.

I have never been a super active member. Most of the people I have encountered have kids on the milder end of the spectrum. I worry about freaking them out. If I just start posting about all of Keegan’s stuff I might terrify those who are newly diagnosed! We just seem like we are worlds apart.

Do they feel the same way I do!??

I decided that I was going to reach out to these people… to see if I get any response. I did! I also reached out to MAGIC, to let them know how I felt. I decided to start a group on Facebook for families with kids on the “other” end of the spectrum… a safe place to share our struggles and our triumphs. A place where we can encourage and support one another on this dimly lit journey! 

I am THRILLED that people are requesting to join daily! I am so excited to get to know everyone and watch this grow. I can’t imagine all that we can learn from each other. 

For those who might like to join send a request!

The first requirement is that you have a child with SOD/ONH who is more severely affected. 

I also ask that you first get in touch with the MAGIC Foundation and join the main group on Facebook


We are still moving forward… Keegan went back to school a day after we got home. We’ve been working on getting back into a routine. Keegan got sick again and we missed our appointment to see a neurologist at UCSF but we have it rescheduled for October. I am trying to get Keegan into an intensive PT program, and we are changing where we go for PT OT and Speech. Back to working on getting the equipment we need. Finally got the bigger gait trainer and got it adjusted to fit him… He looked so good in it! I am looking into getting our new van modified for Keegan’s wheelchair. Same old crazy busy, and I’m doing my best to juggle it all.

Sorry this post took much longer I anticipated... Maybe at this point you can tell why! I will try not to wait so long next time.





Again I would like to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart... (thank you) for supporting us in this... We aren’t done yet! There’s still so much more to do and I hope you will continue on this journey with us!

Krystal

Thursday, August 30, 2012

A time for Growth


WOW! Well it’s been about 2 months since I’ve posted anything... Sorry to leave you hanging for so long!
It’s been a month since we got back from the MAGIC convention in Chicago.
In the last month I have realized that it was okay if I wasn’t bearing fruit... Or if I don’t even have a clue what fruit God wants me to grow (my tree has been really confused!)… I have been undergoing a ginormous growth spurt! I attended the Global Leadership Summit at my church... I would Love to go the MAGIC convention again next summer and watch GLS live in Chicago!!! I also went on a marriage retreat with my husband! I’ve just been soaking it all up and waiting for God to lead me.

from the retreat

the beauty of Lake Tahoe!



I wasn’t sure what to write. I’m not the best at dealing with disappointment; this has been a struggle for me since I was very little. It’s been even harder to deal with knowing I will have to disappoint others.
Most importantly, I want you to leave this knowing that our hard work was not in vain. It seems God’s plan was a little different than mine. To be honest I am still not quite sure what the plan is, and I am okay with that. It’s time to adjust the sails and go in whatever direction he sends me. I am incredibly happy to finally be in a place where I can do that without spending months/weeks/days trying to power through and losing ground.

Jeremiah 29:11-14 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

I don’t write until I feel like it. Until I feel a little tug, and the sense that there’s something important to say. It helps to have a somewhat complete thought to go along with.
Today was an inspiring day, a gift to wrap up the last month, and the gentle tug to finally put everything into words... A lot of words!
 I watched people plunge into the river and come out NEW, baptized in Christ! My church had a picnic in the park by the river in downtown Reno. Our family packed our lunch, and a lunch to give out to a homeless person. We also baked brownies and packaged them up in little bags to give away. 

The current “theme” at church is 
LOVE LIKE JESUS
and that was in the forefront of my mind today as I watched everyone gather to worship. I was overwhelmed with LOVE! That only grew as we shifted to the river to watch people get baptized. I wonder if you can get baptized more than once. I mean, I’ve been saved 15,743 times (funny story, when I was a kid I was never sure if the last one “stuck” so whenever they talked about being saved and said that prayer I raised my hand and did it again), so why shouldn’t I be able to get baptized again? If I ever do, I couldn’t imagine a better way of doing it! As each person went under and came back up the immensity of what was happening started to set in! I looked around at the people gathered all over- on the rocks below me, the sidewalks, and on either side of the river. I saw people coming over wondering what was going on, stopping as they walked by to check it out. I was amazed to sit there and watch God working. I realized that what he has planned is far better than anything I could do on my own.

Continued from Jeremiah…    Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.


So much went into getting to Chicago…
Months of preparation and hard work.
Immense amounts of kindness from friends, family, and strangers in our community!
All of it leading up to a dream, something I thought we could never do. Proof enough of the awesomeness of God. Even if that was all I was able to get out of this, it is something to marvel in! I shattered through the glass above my head, I know there is no limit to what He can do!



That’s all for tonight… I leave you with a cliffhanger! MUAHAHA
Soon, soon I will post the rest of the story (working on putting photos into it etc… Making it pretty for you!